Don’t Call it a Comeback

Offering Apology, Options & Tidbits of Transformation

Wow, how the heck has it been exactly two months since I’ve posted on Substack?! I mean, there’s quite a very long list of reasons why, but nonetheless, I’ve returned to offer an apology – particularly to my paid subscribers – as well as get your input for some blog post options.

With that said, let’s pick up where we left off two months ago. Some of my friends noted their observations that I was burning out, working super hard yet still facing some of the same challenges, while also needing some serious rest. They weren’t wrong at all.

By the end of 2026, I was feeling exhausted and irritable (and honestly disappointed in not achieving some of the goals I’d set out for the year). The thing is, I hadn’t had the time or space to even decompress, let alone reflect and process. Why do I feel like a hamster on a wheel? Do I need to get a (blood or urine) test to check my levels? Am I feeling worn down because I haven’t had a single day off of both wok and/or parenting in eight years, since becoming a solo mom? Am I feeling the magnitude of this decade of firsts? Could it be all of the above?!

Furthermore, I seriously considered hosting a huge event in January to celebrate and commemorate my reaching an entire decade of doing something new every day, but frankly didn’t have the energy to do so. It didn’t feel right. The winter is a time to rest and restore, not rebirth, so that’s exactly what I have done my best to do, while also working full-time and being the sole provider for my daughter.

In fact, it was essentially the same thing for MZA’s Prism. I’d start a post and get it 90% of the way done, but something seemed to stop my head, heart and hands from completing the task. Trust me, there’s no shortage of stories, projects or events. No shortage of words. What was the missing link?

Astrologically, Tuesday marked a powerful turning point – a final phase of a journey that began back in 2018. Uranus – “The Great Awakener” now stations directly in Taurus and forward momentum returns for me, allegedly. It’s a time for turning insights into action. (Tuesday also marked 22 years since my Grandpa Leon took his last breath, interestingly enough. His love and support fueled and guided much of my career, despite the fact he’d already transitioned before I earned my bachelor’s degree.)

Yesterday, the morning after learning about this time, I also received the following message: “What’s been changing on the inside is about to start showing on the outside.” Interestingly enough, it alighted perfectly with the card I pulled at the end of my morning prayer - TRANSFORMATION. Wow, in this very image, I realize I have still been in the pupa or chrysalis stage.

You see, eight years ago, I was birthed anew when I became a mother – the same exact month my daughter and I both each lost one of our parents, legally, knowing we may never see either of them alive again. Then, there was so much shedding to do in the larva stage, removing old layers that no longer served me. So. Much. Shedding. It feels like I’ve been in the chrysalis for quite some time, from which I’m getting ready to emerge from in the coming weeks and months.

According to what I’ve read online, on April 26, “Uranus completes its roughly eight-year, transformative journey through Taurus, marking the end of a major cycle focused on revolutionizing personal values, financial systems, and environmental resources.” What’s fascinating to me is how deeply I feel this in my bones, along with the fact that April 26 is my birthday. Go figure! Perhaps that’s when I shall throw a large event to celebrate my decade-long journey of firsts?! It’s all starting to align now, folks.

Without further ado, here are some of the topics I was going to post about during this two-month-long Sabbatical:

· Reflections from reaching a decade of firsts (10 years of doing something new every day)

· How I spent the last week of my decade of firsts

· Reaching 500+ consecutive days of journaling

· Synchronicity stories: those mystical, magical moments & messages

· Stories about my day-to-day firsts

· Sharing some of my new poetry (via print / audio / video)

· Motherhood updates / Melody milestones

· The Meeting of the Meredith’s of Monmouth County

· Info regarding my live performances, events & classes (poetry, storytelling, writing, etc.)

· Story about receiving unexpected shoveling support

Which one(s) would you like me to write about and post the most?! What’s missing from the list? Have we experienced a first or synchronicity worth sharing here? Everyone is welcome to chime in, while noting my paid subscribers get first dibs (and more content this year will be written exclusively for them).

So, here we go….into this new time of experimentation while Uranus is stationed directly in Taurus. That is, until, my birthday, when I officially get my wings. How poetic. Don’t call it a comeback. I’ve been here for years. Every stage was necessary. Here’s to transformation - something certainly worth celebrating!